10:20 - 05 May, 2005
Sabbatical... and a few other things.
I feel I need to think a lot and start re-evaluating my goals and wants for the next few months.
The compelling urge to create and see my music evolve is very rewarding and fulfilling. Music is..and has..always been an integral part of my being...
I am def. going to start creating again. Since i stopped the Poison, songs and melodies have infiltrated my brain during waking hours and Dream-state.. yes, I have always "Dreamt Songs" and awakened to write them down immediately.
I have so many ideas..I have calming acoustic tunes and I have the heavy driving rock songs..
I have to pursue these songs yearning to finally expel from my soul and my heart. It is not about "making it".
We shall see....
I can taste my HOME again....It is as if I have been in prison for a 1 year sentence...Now my release is in sight...
I'll admit, I am horrified that something will go wrong between now and then....Yet I cannot allow it to consume me or I'll go mad. I just want to fly under the radar till the time comes..
No tragedy, No meltdowns, No dilemmas,
Please God..smooth sailing...?