10:24 - 29 April, 2005
Homeward , ocius quinymo quam laxus
I am slowly regaining strength from this past week's "meltdown moments" . It really is a downer when all the internal work you do gets washed away by 1 petty stupid incident.
I also have realized that since I am no longer on the Poison, I am no longer a "Morning Person"..Not that I ever was, however, now I am super cranky until I finish my coffee and get my bearings together. God, we really need to get home ASAP. I actually had enough composure to speak with the IRS today, and I I didn't hang up on those useless drones, which shows in itself I am improving.:) They are sending out our Money 1 week from today...finally......... I can see the light..I swear, I can almost taste the Salty Northeast winds of the North Atlantic again. The New England Summers. The sea Breeze at 5 PM , The Flower blossoms, The smell of homemade Italian cooking every Sunday.....The cussing of angry drivers on the Long Island Expressway...... I Miss it all....I miss my Mother and Father...My Father who has been in the hospital literally since the day we moved to this "crucible" (a severe test 3 : a place or situation in which concentrated forces interact to cause or influence change or development). I feel so helpless here. I cannot even help my Mother with changing a light bulb..
I even see the stress on my Dogs...Don't worry guys, you'll have a nice big, 3/4 acre yard to run around in and chase all sorts of furry creatures.... Lisa even said to me....."The snow here is not even cool...Nothing compared to a New England Storm"... She's right... Right now. The eyes remain on the goal...... Going home...... No hate, No animosity, no jealousy, no secrets, nothing more ...nothing less
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Just Home.......Just Home......Home...Home..... Home...Home.....Home...Home.....Home..Home Home...Home.....Home...Home.....Home...Home.... .Home...Home.....Home...Home.....Home...Home..... Home...Home.....Home...Home.....Home...Home..... Home...Home.....Home...Home.....Home...Home..... Home...Home.....Home...Home.....Home...Home..... Home...Home.....Home...Home.....Home...Home.....
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